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Monday, February 27

yawns* 优势和昨天一样，从早上玩《剑侠情缘2》到现在。哈哈。越玩越好玩， 不知不觉已近上瘾了。 真是爽， 明天劳工又可以book out了！因为拜三A-LEVEL 成绩出炉。但是我们没有见面，知道为什么吗？因为我们要在家完《剑侠情缘2》哈哈哈！明天又要读书了。真是ＳＩＡＮ．．我已近万到那种什么都不想做，只想玩游戏的程度了。怎么办？我从来都没有这么沉迷一个游戏。哈哈哈。今天勉强得edit我的blog。一点而已啦，还是很丑！SIGH ！我不会啦。想了老半天还是不知道要换什么，所以就乱乱来咯。等我真得很有空的时候再换啦。哈哈。我现在忙着玩游戏。好啦。不说了。我又要去玩了。晚安！ ^^


@ 11:25 PM



* HAPPY 3 MONTH DEAR ! ^^v

yay ! finally. 3m0nths ~ im in e middle of my game dan decided to cum n blog. im tired. been on e com since 10am til now. 14h0urs ~ mummy is gona kill me. she says my eyes nid rest. LOL ~ dear not here to play wid me is boring. i miss him ed tis moment. i wan him. i wan him to cum back. i don wan him in NS. cum n play wid me. im acting like a 3year kid. =,= ahh. i haven change my blogskin yet. i've been wanting to change it since dono when. sigh. i pr0mise myself , i wil GET IT DONE by TMR !! i miss my long lost sister ; FIONA CHNG. 9years. i miss my bestie ; NEO TING LING. 7years. im jus boring. bye.


@ 12:07 AM

Sunday, February 26

yawns * 好累啊。从昨晚到现在都在和老公玩online-game. 《剑侠情缘2》我们昨天去福禄寿那里买的。那可是我们的精心挑选哦。哈哈。但是他的server有一点烂，老公说下个礼拜去买新的。早上4am不小心睡着了，早上十点才起来， 原本老公说他去休息一下，本个钟头后叫他起来。谁知道， 我这个白痴去说要去 ”关眼睛休息一下“， 最后睡到天亮。= 这个游戏不错，满好玩的。因为我也蛮喜欢武侠的，特别是剑的东西。所以我在里面是《峨嵋》- 佛門 。 专门适用剑的。很象很有趣哦？老公是《丐帮》。 哈哈哈~不知道他为什么会选那个。哈哈。我的名字是 ‘ 滨崎公主 ‘ / 绰号是 ‘ 凌兒 ‘…老公是《滨崎飞》哈哈。我开始很喜欢‘凌兒’ 这个名字。觉得这个名字就是好像公主的名字，时时刻刻被宠。呵呵` =P 因为我的电脑有疑点问题，我可是花了好久的时间才能顺利的进入游戏。好累……早上一起来就和老公玩game了， 什么都还没有做。不用紧啦，名天我学校因为要庆祝O LEVEL优异的成绩，所以放我们半天假。我当然是不用说，半天我是不会去的。哈哈！

昨天我和老公没有去圣淘沙， 陪她去了ICA-BUILDING做他的passport。 然后去suntec看FINALDESTINATION. 我告诉你们哦，， 很好看！！ 哈哈。真的。看了电影，我们就到CARLS-JUNIOR吃。 吃得好饱好饱，我根本没有吃完。吃的时候，老公说了很多很好笑的痛惜，让我笑得吃不下。哈哈哈。那种lame的东西只有他能想得出来。真是的。呵呵` =P 最后，我们去买game就赶回家玩了。也许是昨天水不够，不知不觉睡着了。十一点才起来，然后一会儿老公就送我回家了。真是开心的一天。明天就是我们在一起的三个月了。我知道感情这种东西是没有天长地久的，所以我很珍惜我和他在一起的每一个时刻。很sian, 当我的假期完了，老公的才开始。 老工业说他这次又出过完。真好，我呢？ 就要在新加坡读书！ 不公平！！=\




@ 5:40 PM

Saturday, February 25

早安！我终于回来了~~~ It has been one week since i had time to update it . Right now , im ed Dear hse . He is sleepin so soundly now . lols．Dear came to fetch me to his house ard 3am+ in e mornin so that i don hav to take a cab to his house e nxt mornin. haha ` My stomach is feeling so bloated ryte nw after ytd drinking ed K-garden wid e same old cliques ; Wenzi , June , Kitkit & Caiwei . yea ~ YAO GUAI is missing ! that idiot.. didnt turn up ytd last min . haha . i definitely miss her lots . It has been so long since i see her ler . Ytd was e celebrating of my beloved sister birthday . I bet that was e happiest birthday she ever had . Jilong had gave her a very SWEEEETTT surprise that no one can ever expect . He actually booked a room for us earlier on , dan specially ordered a cake wid their sweet neoprints on e cake from SweetSecrets. It was an ice cream cake , a big one . lols ~ i , caiwei n jume knew that ther wil be a surprise bfdae cake for jie but never has us expect that it wil be such a big one , and of course , most ipt , e decoration of the cake . ahha . Caiwei said Jilong is a guy that is 绝种 from the world , One & Only . haha ~ if i were Jie , i wil be moved to tears . Caiwei said the same thing too . hhaha.

Earlier on , met up wid them ed Amk mrt station . Same old thing ; they shouted " PEARRRR ! " once they saw me . hahaha . this was e nick given to me by Anita , that yao guai ~ ahahah . Since , i had this nick for ard 1yr liao . Onli they wil call me PEAR . ahha . thats why i had a frenster acct that was named XIAOLINGZI in e past . haha . din wait for Kitkit ed Amk as planned . ahha . Can see that she is angry wid me . SORRY DARLING ! i know u wish to kill me ryte ! haha . After that we went to ChomChom for a light dinner . Caiwei and I was drunk ytd . =\ We ordered 2jugs of Tiger and 1 jug of Vodka . drank quite alot , haha . so long since i drank caN! haha . had e permission from Dear to drink , of cus , mus make use of this chance . Haha . e last jug was ordered by me n JUne . we this 2 酒鬼, ***** and liqour were always e thing we DESIRED for everytime we met . haha . Cuz out of all , onli e 2 of us like to drink n *****. lols ~ didnt drank tgt last time ed amk , so made use of this chance . But June didnt drink much in end cus she was busy counting e bills wid Wenzi . total = $150++. Each were to came up ard #30+ lor . Caiwei cried , for wad reason , i don rlly know . i guess its bout Rongtian ? sigh . Love always make ppl feel so complicated . i guess Kitkit went home wid a sadded mood too . =\ im glad that at least Dear is loyal to me lar . lols ` went home ard 2+ lor .

Took a cab home myself instead wid Kitkit . ahha . i was busy drinking so she went home herself ard 1 , wads more she has to work e nxt day. i guess , i drank alot more than tt tyme ed Ktv wid jasmin they all . that tyme i tink i drank ard 1jug lidat bah . But today was much m0re than that . BUt at least i wasnt as drunk as tt time . i wanted to cry my heart out , but din somehow . received some fuckin news from Daddy ytd mornin when he fetch me to sch. Wanted to cry out so badly but kept it. was totally disturbed by it, and was moodless for e whole day ed sch. =\ it further showed that my future is realy as blur . I live in fear everyday now , not knowing wad will happen to me e nxt second . What i had never even dreamed of, actuali is goin to happen soon . i really don understand why God is so unfair . i jus don understand why this is goin to happen to me . alrites , we are goin to move house lor . i hate it . i love my room can ! though i always get home late , but i do cherish everything i had in my beloved house . sigh ~ dono lar . don wana tink so much lers . i wan to grow up fast , i wan to go Poly and get a diploma and work and earn lotsa money . Now , i hav another wish , by e legal age , i wana hav a house on my own . And Daddy has said that i wil . sigh . its a long far road ahead .

had my last paper ytd ; SocialStudies. easy !! haha . cus teacher gave a veh BIG tip . lols ` but was rushing against time lar . but aniway , its over , FINALLY . but so fucked up , CT has jus been over then e teachers kept pushig to start preparing for MidYear exam . its like OMGWTF lor . cant u jus give us a break? teachers jus cant stop saying about all e stuff that we study ryte now are ipt to us in JC . pls ! i don intend to go JC alrite , i wan to go Poly . JC is not e ryte place for me . i wana study carefreely . started my bew book by DanBrown '' Digital Fortress " . NICE ! =p i realised smtn , for e past whole week , i never touch a single grain of rice , til now . lols ` i had a tummy so flat alrites ! cus i onli survived n bread everyday . haha . din go recess as as busying studyin for exams . breakfast ; BREAD . lunch ; BREAD . dinner ; FRUITS / not 4getting 150-200 SITUPS everyday. fine . so it is really true that if you don eat , sure can slim down one . lucky i din get e Uzap or go for wad Mary Chia . waste $. 要靠自己！这样才会有满足感！哈哈` But got back a little tummy when i went to Marche wid darling ytd and all e drinking ytd has made it bloated . But its gona disappeear soon alrites . ahha . suddenly , i was n ot as glutton as b4 . i can control myself liao . ine past m whenever i see nice food , i wil be tempted to eat. But nw , wadeva i eat i wil think and onli hav a small portion . ahha . i guess my belly piercing wil be soon . i told myself that once i managed to get a flat tummy , i wil get a belly piercing . Hees ~ but haven discuss wid dear . haha . scully he don allow it ? >,<>

met up wid Angela darling after sch agn . it was FRI , our usual date . lols ` took cab to lucky plaza , dan went to Heeren for our Marche , dan headed to Bugis. bought a slilver heels finally , ed a very SUPER good bargain $10 instead of $30. ahha . that guy was very TEk0 larr . haha . stil tk number from us . Angela gave , i din . lols ` i told him to contact me thru Angela if wan . haha . he said we are pretty , dan this n that . lols ` FUNNY? NOPE ~ =,= an alikuku man i had met .

OHya ! i got a replacement for my ATM card le ! hees . e DARKdays are over wid my beloved ATM card . lols ~ but aniway spend quite alot today liao . tink near to $100. considering to work agn ~ =(

23o2 - THURS // had my A*maths n Physics paper. if heng , i pass . zzz ` but Physics , 要pass很难啦！i left alot blank . lols ` not onli me , quite alot ppl . it was too difficult .wasnt rlly disturbed bout it cus at least , im not gona be e onli one who may FAIL ! hahhah . xD ` got back my Emaths paper . guess wad , i onli get 30/60. its like OMGWTF lor . in e past , i at least get a B lor . i stil can rmber i used to ytop e class okay ~ zzz . sec3 is definitely diff lar. Sec1 & 2 , i everyday after sch go home play com , stil can get at least an B or C for not so ipt subs. this yr , i studied at least 2hours each day , but lei , i get this kind of results . wad does tt shows ? sheer luck in e past or wad ? sigh . my future seems a blur to me . i start ot get worry i wil get more than 20 points . i used to say proudly to Mummy : 不是我没有能力去ＪＣhor , 使我不要进而以！ROFL . alikuku me ~ now i start to doubt tt . SIGH ~ dear said i think too much , stil say it was his fault . SILLY you ~ it as my own prob . it was tt i couldnt understand e concepts well .

22o2 - WED // had Chinese and Chem paper td . it was fine lar .

2102 - TUES // Emaths & Bio paper td . bio was easy , qns came up from 10years series . =]

20o2 - MON // 1st day of exam . Geog and Eng paper . completely din know e Geog paper . ppl use 2 foolscap paper , i onli use 3/4 of one page . CLEVER hor ? >,<

19o5 - SUN // went to Dear hse in e mornin as usual . din hav money so took bus to his house . YA YA YA ! I GOT OFF ED THE WRONG STOP AGN ~ tmd . that really proves i cant take bus . was in a very fucked up mood plus Mummy kpkb . was all alone in Dear hse in e afternoon . he went to mit up wid his frens , dan i ed home study n watch my <<我的名叫金三顺>> so nice ~ =) but didn finish in end cus i was moodless .din rly concentrate on my Geog aso lar . i n dear din talk more dan 10 sentences today . i kept thought if there was something wrong goin between us . msg him on e way home . he told me he was onli feeling so SIAN tt he hav to go back to army plus he was sick . lols ` i think too much liao . Mummy say i very bo liao , go Dear house watch tv onli . ROFL `

18o5 - SAT // went to fetch Dear ed PasirRis ed mornin . dan went for lunch ed 147 wid his Mummy and sis . din go aniwhr td . was busy watching <<我的名叫金三顺>>. jus went Bishan for dinner ed PastaMania , dan home .

* alrites . stop here for now . gona wake dear up for breakfast . gg Sentosa ltr wid him & maybe catch FinalDestination . ^^v

@ 8:27 AM

Saturday, February 18

yawns * had e company of my dearest darling angela ystd. we were so crazy , like hungry ghosts lidat , goin ard Suntec finding food to eat . it was an exception , didnt went t0wn or wad . OUTDATE liao lar , always go . ahha . Angela loved Suntec e moment she went there . must change ma , don always same place . i definitely miss Suntec alot . rlly alot , i miss e w0rkin life there . i miss all the fun i used to hav there . didnt rlly had a good chat wid them , busy finding nice cafe for us to slack . we had so much to eat man ! Gelare , Marche , Swensons , Kushin-Bon , etc . but hor , after much consideration , we decided to go eat steamboat oppo shaw house . ahha . we wana find a place that we can slack e whole day one . lols. made up our mind to eat Marche nxt friday if can . lols ` we gona eat a different restaurant every Friday . after eating , dan went back Suntec agn . we were so full ! aftermath we went Bonsai Garden slack . it has been ages since i went there . e last time i went was wid that kg kia edmund . lols ` TMD ! I LOST MY ATM CARD ! =\ dono why so careless ... gona make a new one tmr . dan i had no cash lor ! lucky Mummy work td dan i get money from her . cus i don hav e habit of bringin money out nowayds liao . bring $ , drop $ . bring atm card , LOST atm card !! =,=

dear was so bad today . called me using his fren hp dan gek siao say he was " Kelvin " , dan say wad got my number from other ppl . ahha . i pek chek pass e phone to dar . ahah . dan he confessed liao . LOL ` alrites . gona stop here liao . nid to go hav a good bath and slp . gona wake up early to go n fetch dear ed Pasir Ris . hees . ^^v


@ 11:17 PM

Friday, February 17

Good mornin everyone ~ its early mornin now , 1 am . jus finished studying . Today break record sia , ed school , was studying all the way . Didnt slp a single bit too , except that my eyes were near to closing during A*maths lesson . Had A*maths remedial after sch til 4 lidat . Didnt went home after that , was studyin wid Shujing & gang ed canteen . it was so difficult and Mr Tee said that our common test wil be quite difficult . =\ I gona w0rk hard , don wana fail it man ~ im e A*Maths rep ok ! x) study til ard gg 5 dan me n Shujing went up to 3rd floor study corner study agn lor . she skipped her CO dan i pei her . LOL ` that was when Alvin they all came up . ( i BLUFF them up , tellin dem we are in a LIFE & DEATH situation ) . Alvin believed and came up . ahahaha . actuali we were jus needing them for help for Maths . ahahh =p ard 6 lidat jiu go home . Normallly , i wil switch on my com once i step into my house . But i didnt . i went to pom straight away and continued my studies right after that . Took a nap halfway and thanks to dear agn that i didnt overslept . ahah . =p

im so happy for Dear ! he signed on for Engineering dono wad in army yahs . the pay is DAMN good . lols ~ but e confirmation wil be on March 7 , if im not wrong . hees . time flies ~ dear is finishing his 3m0nths of army " trial " . Im lookin forward to meeting dear on sat . I guess i wanto go Pasir Ris to fetch him this time . it has been ard 2 weeks since ive d0ne so . He's e onli one that can really make me de-stress man . This week hav been hectic , busy preparing for nxt week common test . really worryin ~ =\ how i wish to slop into e bath tub rite now and hav a cosy milkbath . hahahha ` x)

oh ya !! I FINISH readin Da Vinci Code !! i ytd chiong til 2am in e mornin . guess wad... the ENDING was freakin FREAK ! zzzzz ` that wasnt e ending i wanted to be or expected . somehow, i tot that it was exaggerating. I was freakin ji dong after i complete my book . i was loss for words , simply overwhelmed ed e stupid endin . =,= I agree wit dear somehow lar , an ending isnt ipt , e content and e enjoyment reading e book is dan e most ipt . ahha . Dear aso finish his ' Deception Point ' by Dan Brown too . He wil be readin Da Vinci Code next . as for me , i wil be reading ' Angels & Demons ' , somehow linked to Da Vinci Code too lar . ahah .

alrites . im turnin in . Lights Off ~ lols `

*10 m0re days to our 3m0nth anniversary !! ^^v


@ 12:57 AM

Wednesday, February 15

Well , im back from school yahs . took bus home myself today cus dad was not free to fetch me . Poor me ! carryin such a heavy bag wid lotsa books waitin for the bus in such a sunny day =( jus finished checkin out e movie time slots for this Saturday . gona catch ' The Pink Panther ' & ' The Fog ' wid dear if we hav time on Sat (; School today was quite packed lar . but i stil managed to read my Da Vinci . ahha . im HOOKED to e book . ytd after studyin , i forced myself to carry on e book til ard 2am . =p it is REALLY NICE alrites ! i feel like im back in e Roman World . ahhaha . jus cant wait for e movie to be on e cinemas . 19 MAY 2006 . So long can ! I wan Dear to be e person to watch it with me , onli him . hees . By then , we should be together for half year ? =p After finishing this book , i shall stop my readin for a week cus my common test is jus next week >,< After that , i think i wil get dear to acc me to e library to borrow all the Sidney Sheldon series . haha . if not , i shall be readin on e 1st Part of Da Vinci ; Angels & Demons . Haha . =p

my face is gettin better compared to Sunday.. ( Oh ya , I went for facial ed Century Beauty Spa on sunday . It was so pain man , compared to Lifespa . I dropped tears this time , i am not exaggerating . It was REALLY PAIN ! e woman used a very sharp intrument n squeeze those blackheads etc out . zzz ` But stil , i think it was not bad lar . I stil signed up for next month . I did a Hydrotheraphy Spa too . Immersing in e bath tub of milky water was so refreshing . really didnt wana get up . haas ` )


@ 3:14 PM

Tuesday, February 14

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY !! (;

Well, ed this point of moment , today dont really mean Special to me , bcus .. i have already celebrated wid my dearest on saturday ! hees . Jus gona stay ed home n study ? lols . I had a wonderful dinner wid him ed Jack's Place . Though we didnt went to Boat Quay as i wished , but it was e moments spent there wid him . We chatted n laughed , somehow jus wished that the time will stop there and he don nid to go back to NS . I am thankful ; thankful that i met him on o5o9o5 ed Suntec . He mesmerized me ed e fers sight . He brought COLOURS to my life since ever . Though there were ups n downs, but stil, we are together in e end . (; Those moments spend wid him were wonderful . It was him that made me change , made me understand the way of life . Thanks ~ Im jus loving you as ever , my Valentine (;


@ 2:42 PM

Sunday, February 12

its sunday liao . 2days nvr blog . rlly lazy n tired to do so . goin to CENTURY BEAUTY SPA to hav my facial done dere ltr . well ...

10.o2 ; FRIDAY // sch today was okay lar . not rlly sian . hah . oh ya ~ left out smtn in ytd entry . as usual , me n fiona wil go toilet after every lesson de ma . dan ytd b4 PE lesson we went . we knew tt teacher wil go on n on for at least 15min so we dilly dally in there to escape Mr Tan '' lecture''. who knows , when we got there , MrTan asked us to fo 30push ups ! we hear liao is like =,='' . bo bian ~ we did . haha . from td , we wil not go toilet liao . bt aniway , we tot tt was a better than listenin to his lecture la . but we were warned tt if there is a 2nd time , 60 push ups should be done . =\ played netball . fun =) at least i was more active as like b4 . kees (;

after sch, yangqin pei me rush to chong pang to hav my colour contact lenses bought . i took e CHESTNUT de . haha . was so nervous when tryin to put on my lenses . took quite sometime to put on . haha . after wearin, i was like cryin lidat . haha . was very uncomfortable for e rest of time , fers time ma ! don laugh ` =x rushed home to prep out for my date wid my dearest FEL jie . met her on 2 initially , but i was late . =\ reached ard city hall ed onli 2.30 lidat . daddy la ! ask him fetch me go town he don wan . arbo i won late liao . =(

fel couldnt reognize me ed fers . haha . not surprising , it has been 2years since we didnt mit up . went to bugis ed fers. we went ard lookin for our shades n watch we hav tryin to get one for ourselves for so long . saw one watch ed bugis street , 25.90 . didnt buy tt in end cuz we tot e price was quite ex for tt kind . instead , i bought a ''GUCCI'' bag . x) n aso a black skirt , i w0re e skirt immediately i bought . haha . =p finally , we found our Shades e theEDGE . it was $28 , we bargain til $50 for 2 . ahaha . =p but a prob occured , there was onli one new piece left . tt means one of us had to take e display one . to be fair , we swop e bags ourselves , dan picked one . very lucky , i took e new one . haha . =p we were like so happy to get our shades lor . dan i kip wear or put on top of my head . ahha . went to ACTIONCITY to buy dear valentine present . it was a simple one . a plant tt wil like flap its leaves under sunlight . ahah . dear took a likin to it when we went shoppin for a few times but he didnt buy . so i bought tt for him . at least , he has somethin from me in his car . likdat , everytime he drive , when he see my plant , he wil think of me . =) after tt , we took bus to town . went to cine fers n took our neos . =DD so nice can` x) jie bought a purple top ed BLOSSOMZ . say buy same as me , e brown retro spagh , but in end , she bought e other one =,= started to rain on e way to fareast . =\ our hair was so messy lor , dan i tink i accidentally splash a poodle of water on jie jeans . hhaa . we were laughin n bickerin all e way til far east.

didnt buy much ed far east . jus bought 1 br0wn n 1 white tube from PICZO & CO .dan we went slackin ed long john tk pics . haha . took 97 pics altgt !! after all our posin wit our shades , it was time for jie to go to her aunty hse liao . dan i pei her go orchard mrt there wit cab . tt was when stella came to mit me . there was one bangla taxi driver which we flagged , he was on e opposite of e road dan he ask us wan go whr , we 3 shouted PUNGGOL 3 times dan he manage to hear . dan he say he goin other places , cant . dan i scolded CB so softly, he actually HEARD ! dan he say ' WAD U SAY JUS NOW ? CB AH ? U BLOODY BITCH LA . ' dan he drive off. tmd ~ we 3 shout punngol so loudly he dan hear , i scolded cb so softly , he heard ? crazy ass .

after jie got a cab , i pei stella go heeren buy her things dan we go cine liao . went long john to spend our time . haha . take pics agn lar . 20pics lidat . dan ard 10 jiu go home liao . didnt hav a proper meal e whole day excpet ed sch recess . lols . ^^v spend 100+ today liao . haha . if i continue spendin like this , i tink my bank soon wil be sucked up by me liao , moreover im not workin temporaily . =\ spend quite sometime tkin off my lenses agn . NVM . tmr wil be a BETTER DAY ! ^^v

11o2 ; SAT // yawns . w0ke up ed 7+ to go sch for physics lesson ed 8. so lucky , daddy fetch me =) reach sch , i could see no one of my classs . called yangqin , she say is 8.30 dan start . tmd ! i actuali remberd e wrong time . =\ spend e rest of time ed study corner do hmwk lor . so stupid can me! ` >,< too =")">

after tt we went to JACK PLACE for our dinner . hees . fers time go Jack place lei . sua gua hor ! haha . i ate b4 , but is buffet de . ahha . was so full after e whole meal . haha . we had so much laughter during our dinner . esp bout e '' How to clean your buttocks with jus one piece of tissue paper after your shit. '' LOL ! and aso , during our dinner , e computer repair uncle kip call n asked dear bout e com . zzz ` ask alot qns . he rlly seem inexperience . dear stil hav to tell him wad to do . =,= hees . i asked dear to light up e candle on e table . haha . dan dear say : 这算是烛光晚餐吗？haha . but after sometime , dear go blow off . haha . cus he say e smoke kip blow to his face . haha . but i don feel anithin cuz i was sittin inside . =p but after tt lighted agn lar . ahha . when bill time , dear ask me wan kip e receipt as souvenir ma . i took it . haha . =p dan went to vcd shop to buy vcd to go home watch , since there wasnt ani nice movies this wk . after tt , we went home ler .

spent a hour lidat readin our books . haha . dan after tt went to KTV room watch our vcd . normally , we wil watch vcd in his rm wid his computer , but now com spoil so we went to KTV rm lor . fers tyme went in there , it was so cosy . there was no windows de , so u won be able to know it is day or night time de . haha . after e show was ard 12am liao . i didnt wan to go home so early yahs . actuali dear wanted to mit chloe they all de after he send me home , but ltr he say he lazy ler . he don like to mit me dan mit his frens . it is like so... hais . dono lar . after tt , i can see tt he is frustrated lar . dan i aso feelin quite fucked up . on e way home in e car , i didnt spoke a single word . dan dear broke e ice ； 做么你那么静？ / 没有啦。/ 你生气啊？/ 没有啦。/ 你看到我生气，你生气啊？/ hannor ~ / 为什么？/ 不懂lei,看到你生气就不开心咯。/我有没有骂你。/ 我知道…/ 你是不是在想，你每次都meet我meet到很晚，我只可以送你回家后才可以meet朋友。/ i kept quiet..... / 是不是？/ 是啦，是啦……/ blah blah . dan he say don always let him worry bout me , how to go home all this . even if i take cab home myself , he wil worry if i reach home ler ma . hais . 喜欢我是不是很辛苦？会不会很stress?/ 不会。/ 真的？还是会恨坚持的喜欢我？/ 会……/ i was thinkin , perhaps , i really didnt give him much time for his ownself . i kept him all to myself . uncle they all say correctly , i should give him some time to be with his friends . everytime dear late nite dan go mit his frens , sometimes bcuz of me , he turned them down . sigh . but i onli wana spend more time wid him , i was jus afraid tt i wil lose him if i spend too little time wid him . i was jus too afraid to lose him ...

went home , my face was black . mummy kip ask me tml wad time go mit jerry , i showed her a alikuku face dan tel her ; 没有meet啦！dan she kip ask why, i didnt give a damn . was so angry wit myself , i never realise tt i always make dear worry bout this n that . sigh .

* i am sorry dear~

@ 2:13 PM

Thursday, February 9

yawns . jus wake up not long ~ fall aslp while doin physics in less dan half hour . ard 8+ aloy msg me dan wake up . lols ` rlly tired. jialat ~ cuz tmr friday liao , dan don rlly hav mood to study . lols` excited bout tmr ( FRIDAY ; sisters day ) lol ` nid to shop for valentine pressie for dear . hahaha ` dan finally meetin him on sat lo! die lar ~ physics suddenly i tink kinematics i don understand . zzzz ` alamak ! td rlly kip gettin distracted la . actuali normally i study 4 hours b4 i slp . but i tink td no nid liao . hahaah . =p

* I MUS GET MY SHADES , EYESHADOW , EYELINER , BELT , TOPS tml !! ^^v

@ 9:54 PM

well~ listenin to e song ‘我会好好的‘ ryte now .
a very nice song by CYNDI ;
lyrics aso very meaningful .

我会好好的
花还香香的
时间一直去
回忆真美丽
我是想着你一直想着
你你在我心底
变成了秘密
不要说你爱我，你想我。如果你的心里没有这做
只是勉强的敷衍我
我知道了会很难受
我要你默默走不回头
我会清楚明白你要的是什么
无须勉强的安慰我
说奇怪的理由
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福
我知道它苦苦的----
要给你远方的祝福
我知道它苦苦的

ALOY !! don tink so much okay ~ been ages since i bcum ppl de ' CONSULTOR ' . haha . LOVE is a complicated thing . a very one ... me ownself don dare to say tt i understand wad is love n wad is true love . somtimes , u jus don miss tt person , but u jus wil say u miss him . CRAP hor ? why must one be like this . isit sum kind of responsibilty one has ? lols. i dono wad i talkin ryte now . thanks to aloy i talkin lidat . ahahhaha . mus be like me ok. see ~ i now so mature liao . ahahha . think positive lar ~ SMILES (; somtimes things are inevitable , or as u said , they are planned by God . i know askin u not to think so much is pure shit . u won be able to do tt , neither wil anione . u frenster say ani prob can go consult u ! i consult u cha bu duo hor ~ =p things wil get better between u n her de lar ~ okok ! ?
no matter wad , your good friend ME is always here for you okay ~ think positive la ok ! jus like me (;
* rmber ; give me a SWEETY SWEETY PIE & i wil your CUTIE CUTIE PIE . ^^v

alrites . nuff said . td ed sch was FUN . ahahahah ` i n fiona tried to tk pics of teacher . =p
been ages since ive been so crazy ed sch . kana scolded for all e gigglings in klass , but in end , when teacher scoldin , i n fion stil cant stop laughin . LOL~ shld i upload e pics ? hahaha . my MATHS teacher is CUTE okay ~ lols ` x))) 11 more days to exams . sigh ` mus rlly w0rk hard liao . ytd studied til quite late , finally i understand all physics theory . ahah . suddenly , i tink physics is easy . lOL ~ PATIENCE is all it takes . =DD

hoho ~ dear is finally back fr camp . hees . he say he bcum veh tanned liao . wil be celebratin our val day on saturday instead of nxt tues lor . cuz he book in on sunday liao ma ~ hees . anithin lar ~ every moment spend wid him is a valentine day aso . hahaha ^^ tmr dono goin out wid who lei . wenzi say she n bf 7mnth =\ alot things to buy lar tml ! =\ okok nuff said . im goin . bye #

@ 3:23 PM

Wednesday, February 8

lols . im bored x)
happen to pass by a site dat can check out my japanese name yah .

* My japanese name is 小島 Kojima (small island) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).

hhah . ayumi? if i rlly her jiu hao ler la . lols ` =p

@ 5:01 PM

yawns . jus got bk from sch yahs . haha . everyday, e fers thin i step into e hse is switch on my com , dan lock e door , tk off socks blah blah . rlly cant do w/o my com . its e onli thin i find it to destress myself after a tirin n SIAN day ed sch . lOL ~ listenin to teacher say this say tt , ask u do this do tt , copy this n tt lar ~ =,= haha .

haha . my bio teacher super cute n hav character de . make u laugh like hell man ~ LOL ` some ppl say she pms lar . but i don kay ` 没有礼貌！mus look ed positive side ma , SHE HAS CHARACTER CAN ! x) sumtimes she can be very nice but e nxt sec , she see u laughin she wil bang e book e table n take off e notes fro me visualiser n say ; SERVE U RIGHT ! '' cuz we haven copy finish ma . lols ` n alotalot things lar ~ she sumtimes speak in hokkien de . lols ` got chance tk video lar ~ LOL～

td had E-maths & A-maths test. zzz ` got 2/15 marks for A-maths onli . 他妈的丢脸啦！i the A-maths rep lei !!　＞，＜ dan e E-maths aso , sure flunk de lor `　惨了咯这样；　多一个礼拜就ｅｘａｍ了。怎样ｐａｓｓ！！这种感觉真得很ＳＩＡＮ！神啊，救救我吧！！我知道你是伟大的！xD
finally finished my SHIDNEY SHELDON ; ARE U AFRAID OF E DARK . it was verrrryyyyyyyyy NICE . havin e thought of buyin another one . haha . but a little R(A) lar . lols` it has been such a long time since i can be hooked on to a book liaos . x) haha ` yt skipped pistol trainin. =\ tot of makin it up today , but on 2nd thought , wait she scold me lar ~ =p sigh . for dear's sake ，i must PRESERVERE !! x)

today dear cum back liao lo ! yay ~ ^^v

@ 3:56 PM

Monday, February 6

YAWNS ! jus got back from air pistol trainin . hais . 我今天射得好烂！是不是因为没有黎教练在我旁边指导我？好想念他。没有他教我站的姿势，　我根本没有信心。。为什么这么好的教练上帝要这么对他呢？想到以后都不会有李教练教我们了，就真的ｓｉａｎ一半！靠自己吗？不可能的。黄老师刚对我说四月要派我去ＣＤＡＮＳｓｈｏｏｔ．真是的！我这么烂，　现在又没有教练了，这么会射的好呢？！　刚才真得很想放弃，跟老师说我不想参加比赛，但是我想到ｄｅａｒ，我忍着了……＝｛　情人节就快到了，今天在上课时就已向好了要买什么给他了。他今天又去ｆｉｅｌｄｃａｍｐ了，　希望他不会太辛苦吧～ｆｒｉｄａｙ我ｍｅｅｔ蚊子去逛街看电影。这次我一定要买大很美很美的ｓｈａｄｅｓ！！也要买ｅｙｅｓｈａｄｏｗ．不知道这个礼拜天要不要去做ｆａｃｉａｌ……呵呵｀

今天差一点点就迟到了！七点才起来~我很乖咯～至少我要去学校，换成是以前的我，根本不会去的。甘愿在家里睡觉。哈哈。　因为我知道白以如果不去，会ｍｉｓｓ很多ｌｅｓｓｏｎ．你看，我这么用工了！哦对了！想到上课，就想到ＰＨＹＳＩＣＳ．他妈的！我最讨厌了～老实说这么快，我根本不懂咯！筹划不停的从我的嘴巴出来～真地说不了。很想哭，很讨厌那种感觉咯！去年也是，我不会ｇｒａｐｈｓ～现在也是！可以ｄｒｏｐＰＹＨＳＩＣＳ嘛！真是的～明天又有ＥＭＡＴＨＳ测验，多一会儿我就ｏｆｆｌｉｎｅ了，去读书了。惨了啦！一想到多两个礼拜就考试了真的恐怖啦！＝，＝

@ 6:26 PM

Sunday, February 5

awww ~ im tiredd from all e studyin n eating . =\ felicia niece came to my hse ard 11+ dan we study til 6.30 pm. steady hor ~ tiredd larrrr . thanks to her , i understood more on e topic of INDICES . she is a great companion for study . hehes . muacks (; die liao la rlly . i kip eat n eat . ytd ed home eat 1big plate of hk noodle , dan go gena hse eat big plate beehoon + 2 chicken wings , nite go bugis eat MOCHI MOCHI , dan ljs french fries . jus finish eatin a chicken wing , glutinious rice , mornin rice burger . ahhhhh !! =,= cant cant . tml rlly diet liao . last wk tummy slim a little ler , but now lei ? all gone ` >,<

i miss dear . rlly missin him . he tml gg field camp ler ~ 3days w/o his voice agn . hope this time he is able to get more used to it bahs . okay . gona stop here ler . gona do alittle studyin agn n read up on my JJ jap magazine !! heees . ^^v

# 15 m0re days to EXAM ! =\

# 9 m0re days to VALENTINE DAY !! =D

# 22 m0re days to our 3 m0nth anniversary !!! ^^v

@ 8:41 PM

yawns ~ 1.47am now . jus reach home not long fr cine wid vivian . went to gena hse ard evenin . ahha . actuali say hao 2+ lidat jiu go her hse liao . but i 1 dan wake up . ahahha . =p had a very funny n bad dream !! i dreamt tt japan soldiers are after me , dan wana kill me . take gun wan to shoot me . OMG ~ dan i was like runnin here n there , very scared . dan dono why , somehow i took a cab or wad n escape n ended up in a big house . in a very ulu place one . dan a couple took me in n i hide inside . lols . but dono why e jap soldier found me !! dan he ** %$##@! . dan after tt , i was SAFE ! zzz . wtf ? dono wad is this dream all bout . dan e nxt moment , e couple began packin their things n leave e hse . guess wad ? i saw my brothers n my grandma they all movin in e hse . dan i w0ke up . ROFL ~ wad kind of dream is tt? but at least , i noe e feelin of being chased n e fear of dyin ` >,<

very lazy to take public transport out nowadys liao ~ e tot of tkin bus mk me sian half . mummy say i fat liao , so lazy . ahah . no lor ! is xi guan dear car n dad cab ler . lols ` heng daddy fetch me to mrt . haha . save me fr tk bus =DD reach there eat agn !! x) dan play blackjack . there hav lorraine , shauna , sandy , vivian , chloe , ning jie , ah xin .. hmms , tt all ba . haha . some i dono dem . but talk talk jiu know ler . =p dear so bad !! bluff me say sat nyte dan mit me , say wad wan go out wid other gals , dan i tel him to go n kup his phone . haha.` bad !! =\ ltr he call agn say bluff de . lOL ~ but aniway , 我是个很大方的奴朋友！x) ard 6+ dan we tk mrt to bugis nor . ed train , got ppl bluetooth me say <> zzz ` crazy . i dono who lor ~ always lidat one . dan ed bugis slack slack eat eat dan tk cab to cine . i , shauna , lorraine & sandy share a cab , dan gena , vivian , chloe tk another cab . but somehow , they manage to reach cine ! we cant !!! cuz e cab uncle say wad got chingay dan road block . he drop us ed heeren there lor . when we got down , we realise we cant cross e road to cine ! dan we spend 20mins lidat walkin here n there , tryin sooo hard to find e path to cine . walk walk dan behind got a group of guys ; '' weet u weet '' , 小姐我可以认识你吗？lols . didnt give a damn . reach there readi 9+ liaos . all sweatin , sooo shaggg ~ =\ went toilet to touch up on our makeup fers dan go find gena they all. saw some frens n siman they all . dan went arcade awhile dan all go home liao . yaya ~ im sandy's today lar . LOL ~ love her larrrrrrrr =p

left mi n vivian . dan we go long john slack , eat eat agn ! x) talk talk ... take pics !! take 75pics td ~ crazy hor . lols `=p til 12 lidat dan go . ahahaha . take pics halfway a guy behind us cum approach me ; 小姐，可以跟你做个朋友吗？/ er,,不可以啦。我有男朋友了。/不用紧啦。 做朋友而已。 / 真的不可以， 对不起阿……/那不用紧咯。dan he walk away ler . ahhaha . 15mins ltr , a woman come approach me . 小姐，我朋友做外面的要跟你那号码，可以吗？/ eh,,不好意思，我有男朋友了。 //那不用紧，谢谢你。LOL! dan awhile ltr, somebody bluetooth me agn ! =,= look here n there aso dono who sia . wtf? 2nd time . finally , made our way to mrt . e last train , heng ah ! lols ~ non stop talkin.. hah . kept chattin bout e childish thinkin of us in e past . rlly nice to be able to chat wid someone who hav e same experience wid u lor ~ (; on e way home ed bus , guess wad. ppl bluetooth me agn !! nvr accept , dan kip send n send . zzz ` i tink is e guy sit behind me one lor ~ i tou tou tk a pic of him . ahahha . =p

okay larrr ~ stop here liao . gona slp soon . tmr stil nid wake up early mit niece study . lols . wil upload my pics tmr yahs . DIET STARTS ON MONDAY AGN !! xD adios ~ ^^v

@ 1:46 AM

Saturday, February 4

haha . niece? u shld be readin now bahs . lols ~ our family background is indeed complicated hor . LOL ~ 1.30am liao . eyes very pain , tink due to e eyemakeup removal . =\ jus came back from aunt linda hse yahs . got angpaos agn !! lalala * $100 . =DD almost everyone cant recognize me lor . stil tot i my cousin gf . zzz ` some stil ask i got surgery isit . hahaha . EXAGGERATING ! it has been ard a yr i nvr go visit them bahs . yea , i admit i change alotalot . when i was with him , i changed myself liao . ahha . x) played wit my nieces they all . they were all so adorable . took alot pics wid them . hees . =D ate quite alot aso =\ monday dan start to diet agn.

sians ~ quarrels ed home agn . xi guan jiu hao .... later gg gena hse bah . i very scared i wake up very late . LOL ~ i miss dear ... jus now didnt hav chance to talk to him , onli listen him talk cuz i was wid my dad ` >,<>

# 16days m0re to exams !! =\

* m0re pics ed http://www.wretch.cc/album/album.php?id=bebeger&book=14

@ 1:36 AM

Friday, February 3

HELLO !! I HAV SO MUCHHH TO BLOG ! =DD (27o1 - o3o2 )

o3o2 ; fRi // well~ jus came back fr sch yahs . a tired day. non stop studyin ed sch td , no slackin ed all . i actuali look up all those vocab w0rds one by one thru dictionary ! its like OMGWTF lor ~ its has been ages since i did tt liao . started readin a book by SIDNEY SHELDON ; ARE U AFRAID OF THE DARK? szesing see me readin , dan she was like so shocked lor . stil say wana go buy4d . hahah ` im afterall a good gurl hor ! =p

rlly veh pai seh to angela darling ~ =\ last min cant mit up wid her cuz dad say need to go aunt linda hse bai nian hav buffet . yeewen jie aso nvr go town liao . cuz jilong sick . we crapped soooo much last nite like nobody business . hees . had sooo much to catch up wid each other . we hav been sisters for .. hmm , this 3rd yr liao . haa . so fast , when we fers met wid yaoguai, gongong face we had. i can stil rmber how we played pool. LOL ~

after bloggin hav to go get ready liao . hoho ~ i wan to get lotsa angpao larr ! sian . dear gg field camp ed jungle agn . 3days ~ okk lar . study can mk my time pass very fast now liao . jus 10qn of maths can mk me fall aslp . ROFL ` 17m0re days to exam !!!!! >,<

o2o2 ; tHurs // im finally back to sch , after my '' ONE WEEK BREAK ''. there's jus sooooo much things for me to handle ! aargh ~ FCUK . jus one day n so mani rules of AMATHS & EMATHS pop out . zzzz ` siannn larrr . tink my brain got space to store meh ? tmd . sec 3 rlly soooo dif . last2 years i skip sch alot days aso slack one . this yr skip one day , missss so mani things ` >,<>
after sch tk cab go find dear . ordered 2 med canadian pizza for lunch . ahah =p fat liao! x) eat til wan burst , cant finish =,= tel dear order regular one he don listen . =\ 6+ jiu tk cab go home liao . 5hours pass so fast.... in sch one hour like 1day lidat. happy moments jus passs so fast ~ =( 8more days dan can get to see him agn . but im contented la . he book out 6 days , we were tgt for 5 days la. kekex (;

o1o2 ; wEd // ok , jus let me be a pig for one day . skip sch cuz rlly tired. hah . 12+ dan wk up . ahh ~ wk up see dear sms . he havin steamboat ed home =\ SIAN ~ i everyday ed his hse but his mummy nvr mk lei ! =x dear didnt go soccer wid frens =,= 早知去找他 ~ ard 3+ lidat dan made my way to suntec lo. ahah ` miss eveyone ed suntec . so happy lei ! uncle , terence , christine , all say my face slim liao . haha . dan say i look diff . =p of cus , got angpaos !! =DD
ard 7lidat dan we went boat quay hav dinner . went SIZZLING ROCKS hav e dono wad stone steak meal ah . hah ` fers tyme eat steak . sua gu hor ? =p ate serloin steak plus some appetizers . sooo nice lo , esp e snails . i forget e actual name liao la . ahahah ` quite ex w0r e restaurant . dan eat halfway mummy say she strike lottery ! yeay ~ i like e ambience sia , by e river . so romantic . aso my fers time eat by river . ahhaah . hmms , how nice if i & him spend our val day der... plus roses... drink wine... LOL ! daydreamin * x)

31o1 ; tUes // a day wit my dearest agn (; we both glued to e tv , eat , slp , eat , tv . LOL ~ nyte his mummy invite frens n relatives dan cook alot . i eat so much , like a greedy pig lidat . haah . she cooked all my fave dishes which mummy long no cook liao . ahha . eat ler rlly no energy move . LOL ~ didnt go to shanling party cuz bai nian ma ~ sry la . =( ard 12+ left his hse dan sun bian go khatib drive mummy home . aunt lily was there aso >,<>
* sorry SHANLING ~ i didnt meant to brk my promise de . but rlly cant leave =\

30o1 ; mOn // another day wid dear agn ~ as usual , tk cab to his hse ard 7+. ahh ! tell u guys ~ i overcome my phobia of dogs a little more td lei ! cus dear let his dog out runnin ard ma . dan i see e dog i was like don dare to go dwn lor , stood ed 2nd floor . =\ dan he say how can we be tgt if i so afraid of dogs . dan i tk a deep breath , i walked down e stairs . ....... e dog immediately clung onto my leg ! i go whr aso cling . xia si ren la !! but after awhile , i tel myself not to be afraid n dan i got use to it liao . hahah ` okay la ~ steady . one more step to overcome e fear of dogs . LOL . rlly very proud of myself . hah . =p

dan ard 11+ , we n his mother n 2 sisters went to watch I NOT STUPID 2 . hah ` went to bishan ed fers , but mus wait veh long , dan we go tpy lor . heng ah ~ wait half hour can liao . very touchin lei e show !! tears kip droppin . =x one of e guy aso call jerry . ahhahah . =p after tt they go ah yee hse dan we go cine for our 2nd show ; MEMOIRS OF GEISHA . went yoshinoya to hav our dinner . normally , i wil pester dear to tk neoprint . but td , i jus didnt hav e mood lor . soo shag ~ sit too long liao la i tink . hah . kept walk past e shop but nvr spoke a single thing . we were both so tiredd ~~ show veh nice la ! i like lei , but he don like . maybe is cuz i like jap culture so i tink veh interestin ba . hah ` 2.5hours - sit til butts pain ~ =\ after tt he drive me home ler ...

29o1 ; sUn // HAPPY CNY ! this yr wk up ltr as usual cuz most relatives went church ma . but this yr better lo , all same time gather . angpao one shot take !! x) wah sian . all ask me same qn , 明年O LEVEL了hor? actuali evenin plan to go yeewen jie bai nian one , jus like last yr . but last min dear say bring me go his auntie hse bai nian . haha . of cus ~ i went . =p waited for him outside his cousin pet shop ed 417 for one hour ... =\ cuz i afraid of dogs.

aiyo ~ his auntie hse aso hav dog . 吓死人啦！ate steamboat ed their hse dan after tt went to his biao jie hse . haha . hav dog aso !! but this one veh small . cuteeeeeeee die liao ~ name is KOBI ~ hahah . for e fers time in my life ; i touch a dog !! n i rlly like it veh much ~ wont bark like dear dog ( KK ) . rlly like a teddy bear . ahahha . played blackjack . damn lucky this yr . had banluck straight in row for at least 3 times lor . stil hav ban ban . ahah . wads more , i n dear same time ban luck . we sit beside each other ma . haahha . all xia dao , say i very xie men . LOL ~ actuali i no money play one de , dan dear lend me $2 . hahah ` =p ard 12+ jiu go home liao .

a tired day,, but so fun ! 1st time i spend my cny wid my boyfriend ! ^^v

28o1 ; SAT // didnt manage to go pasir ris to fetch dear . =\ cuz saw my dad in e mornin . zzz ` ended waitin ed his hse for him lor ~ went to PS to shop for his cny clothes . ahah . jus 45mins dear buy finish liao . fast hor ! hah . see nice not , like , dan wack ! hah ` x) after tt went to his hse ler . his mummy asked me stay for renuion dinner . but daddy ask me go home eat . =,= dan bo bian lor ~ hais .
go home lei , see daddy n ahma eatin themselves !! tmd ~ pls lor , ask me go home eat dan ownself eat .WTF ? out of point. if i knew tt earlier i eat ed dear hse lor . sure very happy e . quarrel wid dad aso . cb . cried for e fers time for cny . 9pm i camp inside my room liao ~ all alone cryin .... i tink ard 11+ i sleep ler . at tt moment , i jus tot wad a stupid family i hav . zzzzzzz ` wad a fuckin cny i hav !

* m0re pics ed http://www.wretch.cc/album/album.php?id=BEBEger&book=14&page=3

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